A mother's love

Leandro! Can I just say that your mom and I may have had some differences between us but that doesn't mean we are competing for your love nor does it mean that we love you more than the other. I will be honest, I just didn't like the fact that she didn't grant me time with you.

But aside from that, I am glad that she is taking care of you. She has nurtured you and has stood by your side more than a mother should. She loves you so much just the same as I do. She has raised you well but I want to also raise you just like how she does. I'm just happy that you are in safe hands. I thank the Lord that you are being taken cared of, also I hope she will keep allowing me my God given right to see and be with you.

I love you, son.

Tried, trying and will keep on trying.

As you know, I'm not with you. I'm not there when you wake up in the morning and not there to kiss you at night. Its because your mom and I were separated. However, even if we weren't together I still tried to see you and your mom still allowed me. I would give anything to tuck you in and kiss you goodnight but then I have to settle with just those couple of hours with you.

Everything was going okay, I've accepted the fact that I have to settle for that just to be able to spend time with you. Until your mom had a boyfriend and then all of a sudden I couldn't see you anymore.

She wouldn't reply to me. She wouldn't allow me to see you! I know your mother loves you but to me she is just selfish! She wouldn't allow me to be with my boy! I kept trying to see you even if the hours kept getting shorter and the days kept getting fewer and fewer.

There were instances when she said I could see you and then at the last minute she would cancel. Son, I tried everything in my power to see you. I am not badmouthing your mother but I just want you to know that I've tried to move mountains just to have you in my arms. But I will not stop. Never will I stop for as God as my witness I will fight for what is mine.

I love you Leandro.

Born into LOVE

I've always thought and imagined how I would react, should the time come that you would come into this world. I've been rehearsing and even tried to put myself in that state of bliss. But I realized that no matter how much you prepare yourself life always throws an unexpected curve ball at you.

It was Januray 11, 2008 and I was taking my second Anatomy test and had no knowledge of the fact that your mother, Tweetums, was in the hospital because no body told me anything. I even joked my classmates that I had no idea when you'd come out.

Then as I was in the middle of my exam I got a text message from your Aunt Sugar saying "Congratulations Mark, healthy baby boy... 6 pounds!" When I finished reading the message I didn't know how to react. Everything that I imagined and practiced on how I'd react were thrown out the window.

I was filled with a lot of emotions. Fear and happiness were the major emotions that I had to deal with. Happiness because I am a father and the pregnancy went well and also because you are a healthy baby boy. Fear because you are my first born and I didn't know how I would be as a father. However all of that went away when I held you in my arms because the only emotion that was present was love for you. A love that will protect you from anything and anyone.

Your name.

You might wonder why your name is Leandro Miguel Alba. Wonder why you carry your mother's name and not your father's. Your Abu was ill and he requested that your last name be Alba instead of Blanco. That was the last draw and I gave in.

Son, believe me I fought for your name. I didn't know that it would be only the start of my battles to be part of your life. Leandro, your name was suppose to be Leandro Miguel Alba Blanco. This is the start of my fight for US.